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Thursday, June 17, 2010

Long story short


Hey guys! I know it's been a while, I even started a new blog and everything..but remember John from Drama Fest last year? Well, we were together for 8 months and we broke up right after Christmas. The reasons were good, and we never stopped being like best friends. But...I'm still in love with him...and his mother still talks to me all the time...and the other day we were talking on Facebook and we are currently planning for my friend Craig and I to go and surprise John. His mom's so excited and she thinks he'll love it. And I'm seriously thinking about telling him how I feel. I want to tell him I love him. Does anyone have any input on this? :/

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Just an update

I've realized that most of my friends are either older or younger than me, or not even in my school. It's kind of odd, to be honest. But I guess it's a good thing to have friends all over the place.


By the way, I haven't been in school a full day since last Wednesday. Today my doctor sent me to get chest x rays and blood work. Thankfully, everything came back okay and I should be back in school tomorrow. Wish me luck, because I heard that the honor's theatre list is going to be posted up tomorrow, and I'm sure I've got a whole lot of work to catch up on after missing an entire week of school.


I wish I could go to youth group tonight :(


Love to all,
-Smara

Sunday, May 10, 2009

mother's day!

I've been sick since Thursday. Finally I'm feeling a bit better, but I'm still fighting a wretched cough. I'm going to the movies later with my mom and grandma to see Obsessed. My friend Kelly informed me that it's really a great movie. Happy mother's day! Go tell your how much you love her :)

Friday, May 8, 2009

I bought the Jack's Mannequin CD today.

finalllly.
ahhh i love them <33

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Roasted marshmellows and smelling like smoke

There was a bonfire at my pastor's house tonight. Basically everyone from my youth group was there. We all just sat by the fire making s'mores and hanging out. It was pretty relaxing and I absolutely love everyone who decided to attend :)

By the way, Tiemen and John want me to go with them to see a Taking Back Sunday show on June 24. I hope I can go...

Sunday, May 3, 2009

The heart roars like a lion at what they've done to us.

I think I might have a slight crush on John.
I can't stop thinking about him, and whenever Myspace tells me I have a comment from him, a smile immediately appears on my face.

What do I do?

Saturday, May 2, 2009

Drama Fest!

We left the school about 7:45am, over 50 of us cramped in one single bus, forcing some of us to have to squeeze 3 in a seat. I sat with this girl Shaina who I didn't really know before the bus ride, and my best friend Mikaela. Across from us was Bruce, Matt and Jimmy. We spent the whole ride there singing random songs like Low by Flo-rida and Scotty Doesn't Know from the movie Eurotrip. Although Bruce, Matt and Jimmy decided to change the words to "Sara doesn't know" at times... Haha they're such goons. We even sang The Wheels On The Bus at one point; Mairi, Shaina, Mikaela, me, Nick, Emily, and Macey.


Once we finally arrived, the first thing we did was go straight to the auditorium for an opening speech and then we watched 3 schools perform a few scenes from their spring play before we went on stage for our performance of Alice In Wonderland. I sat next to Bruce and Mikaela, and Bruce decided he wanted to lay his head on my shoulder for the first 3 plays. By the time it got to be our turn, I was so nervous I felt sick. I don't know why I was nervous, I never get nervous anymore. But perhaps it's because we had never performed on this stage, and we changed so much of our play for it to fit into our mandatory time span of 20 minutes. Anyways, it was time for our performance and even though Ashley messed up one of her lines and Nick broke a teacup during the tea party scene, it was a huge success. I was so glad because being on this stage was quite strange for me.. it was a lot smaller than the stage I'm used to performing on, much closer to the audience, and when you look out into the audience from on the stage, you can't see anything. You feel like nobody is watching you and you're in a black room. That was the part that freaked me out the most. But the only thing that kept me going was the fact that every single person in there was laughing histerically at everything we did, singing when we played music, and cheering throughout our whole performance.


After we performed our play, it was time for lunch. I sat with 4 of my theatre teachers, Mikaela, Kelsey, Ashley and Tiffany. Oh- I forgot to mention, during one of the performances (it was about a chain letter and it was absolutely hilarious) Mikaela and I recognized this kid we met 2 years ago at Generation Conference and haven't seen since. His name is John. And sure enough, when he came over to our table during lunch time, it was most definitely him. From the moment he said hi to us, he was cracking jokes left and right and had absolutely everyone in a fit of laughter. So of course, Mikaela and I had to hang out with him and his best friend Tiemen the rest of the day. After lunch, we went out into the foyer where everyone was playing "Baby do you love me?" It's this really awkward, yet super fun game where everyone stands in a circle and the person who is 'it' has to go up to someone, preferably someone you don't know, and say "Baby do you love me?" in any possible way you can, just to get that person to laugh, without any physical contact of course. If the person can't respond with "Baby I love you but I just can't smile" while keeping a straight face, it's their turn to be 'it'. Mikaela and I aren't too fond of that game because of how awkward it can get sometimes, so we ran into the middle of the circle and sat on the floor, explaining to everyone that we were in the cookie jar. Within seconds, we had a whole bunch of kids on the floor with us, including John, who decided we should all have a really intense game of Duck, Duck, Goose. And trust me, it was quite intense!!! Soon after, we were all told to go back into the auditorium to watch a few of the other schools perform. John made everyone move so he could sit next to me, and Mikaela was sitting next to Tiemen. They were talking in gibberish and the only part I could understand is John asking Tiemen what he thought of us, and then John saying that we're "fine" and "hot" hahaha. Before the performances the four of us started a huge wave and the "we will rock you" boom, boom, clap thing. John sang at the top of his lungs :) And again, the performances themselves were HILARIOUS.





After this, we had our first workshop. A few of the schools went to see the judge, who told us we were his favorite performance of all!!! And throughout the whole day, everyone there kept talking about how AWESOME "Alice In Wonderland" was! :D

Then Mikaela, Kelsey, Ashley and I went to this other workshop called "Basic Contact Improvisation" ...it was nothing like we expected, but it was still pretty fun. Then, John and Tiemen came towards the end and Jon taught me how to waltz. Yes, we were dancing together across the stage, in front of everybody.. ;) During this time, Kelsey and Ashley left us so me and Mikaela hung out with John and Tiemen for a bit before we decided to go to the acting workshop that had to do with diction and how if you base each line on the person your talking to, your expression of intent will turn out awesome and it'll make you look really good on stage. Mikaela and I grouped up with this kid named Eric, and this girl who I never quite found out her name. But she did Shrek as a musical at her school, which I thought was the coolest thing ever.








After the acting workshop, it was time for dinner and this time I just sat with Ashley, Kelsey and Mikaela. Then we went outside where there was this huge circle of people singing, clapping and dancing and playing this game. I'm not sure what the name of the game is, but the words to the song are "Ride, ride, ride the pony. Ride, ride, ride the pony. Ride, ride, ride the pony. This is how we do it! Front to front to front my baby. Back to back to back my baby. Side to side to side my baby. This is how we do it!" Before I actually joined in to play the game, I was standing outside of the circle with some friends and just smiling. This is one of those games where you can watch and you'll still have fun. But once I joined, it was seriously the most fun game I have ever played. Hahaha then we all played Simon Says because everyone got tired hahaha :)








Then it was time for the college to perform their whole play, Into The Woods. To be honest, it wasn't the best performance I'd ever seen and by this time we were all super tired so it was hard to enjoy it. After their play, we went out into the hallway and it was time to leave. John was riding on Tiemen's back and they were chasing me across the hallway and almost into the bathroom because John said he had to show me something. I came back out of the bathroom, and DZ was getting kind of impatient because she had been waiting for me, Mikaela, Ashley and Kelsey so we could leave. So instead of John showing me how amazing he can play the piano, we were told to say our goodbyes so we could leave. I hugged John about 4 times, both of us saying we were going to cry cause we were going to miss eachother so much. Then Mikaela, John, Tiemen and I had this massive group hug, and then Tiemen hugged me again. Haha








The bus ride home was so uncomfortable - Mikaela, Ashley and I were forced to sit on the floor in the aisle because there was literally no room left in the seats. I spent my ride home with Sam almost in my lap, sleeping, Bruce and Matt dibbsing me for prom and senior ball in the next couple of years, and half asleep myself. We finally got back to the school around 11:45 so I didn't actually get home until around midnight.








Today is Casey's senior ball. She's bringing Nate as her date, so that should be cute. I believe I'm going to the march around 6. So I should probably get going on my english homework. Have a lovely Saturday, ladies and gents :)








I miss John and Tiemen a whole lot :(




















"I'm not tired and I'm not yawning. I just want to put my arm around you."