I never know what to call these...

I got my very first cat scan and a whole bunch of x-rays today. This really funny doctor that reminded me of one of the guys off of the show Two and a Half Men had to inject some orange dye into me through an IV. I was freaking out before this test, but to be honest, it really wasn't all that bad.

I'm leaving for Maryland tomorrow. I should probably finish my packing soon... I hate packing. I never know what to bring, or how much of it. I know I've definitely over packed this time, but I guess it's safer to do that than to not bring enough.

Picture from New Year's Day:

I went to the mall after church yesterday. I bought two tank tops and a plaid shirt from Charlotte Russe, a couple of necklaces from Macy's, two tank tops and two dresses from this little Indian shop (yes, the dresses are really from India!) I also bought some black dress pants to wear to the production I'm going to in March with my aunt. I guess we have to dress up a bit, and for some reason I'm not allowed to wear a dress or skirt, so I'm wearing dress pants. I haven't found a shirt to go with them yet though...

Happy Valentine's Day!!!

I called Ryne Thursday evening and we talked for a little bit. I honestly feel so much better after having that conversation with him. I really think that's what we needed to do. Talk it out, voice to voice, and since he won't give me the time of day in person, I decided to call him. I actually even asked him if he would mind me coming to Maryland with his family, riding along in that 7-8 hour drive, and spending 5 straight days with them. You guys are probably all like: "What?! I thought you couldn't go to Maryland!" Well, things changed, and sister Pearl (Casey/Cameron/Ryne & Dan's mom) texted Casey the other day and invited me to come with them, and of course, my parents said yes. I can't wait!!!

Unfortunately I didn't get to go to Josh's birthday party last night, for various reasons, but we're still planning on meeting up at one of our youth groups or the cinema one of these days. My friend Casey ended up coming over and we had a movie night in my basement. We watched Deep Blue Sea (it's an extremely noticeable 'special effect' shark movie, with incredibly lame 'special effects) and then we watched Atonement, and although it's kind of confusing, it is now one of my favorite movies of all time.

I woke up this morning to 3 Valentine's Day gifts. One from my parents, and two from my grandparents. My mom and dad got me an iTunes gift card, and my grandma and grandpa got me a super nice bag and an incredibly cute dress. Then I got ready and went into the village for my friend Alicia's surprise birthday party. It was supposed to last from noon till five, but I ended up leaving around twenty of three because I have so much homework and packing to do before I go to Maryland on Tuesday.

I love every single one of you readers and I wish you all a happy Valentine's Day (:

Why do I let these things get to me so much?

Here I go, crying over something Ryne did, once again. He's such a jerk to me, I can't even handle it anymore. Apparently on top of being stuck up, he thinks I'm annoying and enjoys picking on my boots. (They're black and they kind of look like Amish boots, but so what? They add a classy touch to my outfits and personally, I think they're pretty darn cute. My mom gave them to me, they used to be hers...) I was already having a bad day, actually I haven't been having the greatest week in general, and that was just the icing on top of the cake. Everybody is noticing a change in this kid, including his entire family, and it's definitely not for the better.

I'm so glad tomorrow is Friday. It's the last day of school before winter break, and it's also Josh's birthday party. That's right, I get to meet Josh tomorrow, and it's really exciting :)

Kim and A Cup of Coffee

Spear said our play is "really good" which from him, means a lot. He's not one to compliment people.

The final title: Kim and A Cup of Coffee

Wish us luck on placing in the contest! DZ submitted them today.

So I gave up Florida for nothing.

My parents and my best friend have every right to be mad at me, but they're not.

Ryne's an idiot, a moron, a jerk, and a whole bunch of other names I could call him but I won't. Thanks for making me and my best friend Mikaela cry, once again, you stupid loser.

Oh.. and did you hear? I'm stuck up and I think I'm better than every single one of you out there, and Mikaela is retarded and annoying. (Sarcasm intended)

And guess what?! We're not going to Maryland. Well, at least I'm not. I texted Casey hoping for her to cheer me up a bit, and the first thing she said other than "Heyy :)" was that nobody's going to Maryland except her family.

So apparently, I gave up Florida for nothing.

P.S. Casey thinks I hate her because I kind of flipped out when she told me. I don't hate you, darling, I was already in a bad mood, and that was just the delicious, ever so needed, cherry on top.

Lovely evening, isn't it?

Oh the weekends.

Friday consisted of working out at Curves, then going to the cinema to see He's Just Not That Into You with my mom and my friend Casey. I spent the night at Casey's house afterwards, stayed up till 2:30/3 ish in the morning talking and on the phone with Sean, Joey, Adam, and David. I miss them. Only 10 days till I get to see all the Marylanders!!! :D

Today I went to the movies to see Taken with Casey, my mom, and my aunt. This guy is seriously like the detective version of House - amazing. My aunt also invited me to go see the Resurrection with her and some friends in Pennsylvania the weekend after my birthday. I can't wait! Casey says she's seen something like it before and it was amazing.

I didn't go to school today.

I was kind of upset for a little while at youth group last night, but I didn't know why. I felt like I was going to cry. So after worship and service, we had an alter call. And Pastor Jonnie said if anyone wanted prayer they could step up to the front and someone would come pray for them. I was shaking so intensely I could hardly walk, but I went up for prayer. Before I knew it, I had like the entire youth group praying over me, and hands were lain on my shoulders, arms and back like crazy... Afterwards, I recieved a whole bunch of hugs and I felt a little bit better, just to know that so many people care... After taking down all the equiptment and stuff, all of us went to our pastor's house for Pastor Jonnie's birthday party. Most of us sat in the livingroom, ate tons of pizza and other delicious snacks and watched American Idol... I'm SO happy 'Bikini Girl' went home :)

I didn't go to school today. I had another doctor's appointment, this time with my urologist. My doctor was 7 feet tall! I was a bit intimidated at first, but he was super nice. He named a few things that I may have, but nothing's positive yet. I had to get blood work today, and I have an IVP (an x ray of my kidneys) coming up and a follow up urologist appointment at the end of March. After my doctor's appointment we went out to eat at this restaurant called Ninety Nine. I haven't felt the greatest all day so I didn't really eat all that much :/ Then we went to this place called Gary's Music and I got a music stand, a tuner and a metronome for my guitar.

I should probably go see if I can do some of this global homework I have here... Comments, lovelys? :)

Pastor Jonnie's birthday!

Today is my youth pastor's birthday, so tonight instead of going out to eat like we usually do after youth group, we're all going back to the Sandborn's house (my pastor's house) for a party till late tonight.

My science teacher told me she redid my grade and I have an 88. It's still not good, but it's definitely better than that 85 I thought I had. I also have a 100 in theatre...

Spear told me, Mikaela and Ashley that we have a really good chance of winning that competition with our play because it has such a twisted ending. As soon as it's graded I'll post it up here for you all to read :)

Ashley and I stayed after with DZ (another one of our theatre teachers) and a whole bunch of other people after school today. We were talking about the spring play (which is most likely going to be Alice In Wonderland) and how she wants to have a dance to Circus by Britney Spears and Disturbia by Rihanna in it. DZ also mentioned how she wants Ashley and I to have a whole lot more lines this time, and be in all the dances. I'm so excited! :D Then me, DZ, Ashley and this girl Morag danced around the classroom to Ashley's iPod blasting through the speakers. DZ and Ashley were singing all the lyrics and reinacting the music video to Circus. Hahaha it was hilarious! :D

By the way, my guitar lesson last night went extremely well. And I'm going to go practice what I learned right now :)

Learn.

I haven't been doing very well in school lately. Our first semester just ended last week which means we're already halfway through the year. Wow, I can't believe how much time flies. But anyways, I've never been off high honors in my life, and I'm not about to start now.. but most of my grades did drop an awful lot this past marking period and I don't know why:

Living Environment Lab- 94
Living Environment- I'm not sure about, it's either an 85 or an 87
English AP- 87
Geometry- 89
Global History- 84
Spanish 3- 97

And then I'm pretty sure I have a 100 in Photo Journalism and a super high grade in theatre.. But I don't know yet.

Gym was fun, we're doing volleyball and Shelby was my partner. She's like my sister, I love her to death :)

I had a doctor's appointment after school for my foot, she treated it for a wart (yuck) and now I have a huge bandaide on my heel. American Idol is on tonight, and I have my first guitar lesson at 7. Horrah! :D

Fasting.

Materialistic Country:
I'm proud to say that I made the decision yesterday that I'm going to fast Myspace and Facebook for at least a week. Some of you may think I'm absolutely insane, while others may think it'll be a piece of cake. Well, it's really not that easy for me. I actually even had a debate with myself yesterday afternoon if I could actually do it, or if I wanted to change my mind and fast something else. But then I came to the conclusion that we Americans base our lives way too much on the fact that we have things like internet at all, or other materialistic things. I never realized how materialistic I was until yesterday. The time I spend surfing the net rather than doing something productive or being active is insane. Well, it is more so now that it's Winter and I can't do as much outside as I'd like to, but either way, there's a lot of better things I could be spending my time doing. Our country has (or should I say had) so much power, wealth and just material things in general that too many of us seem to take everything else forgranted. I mean, look at these third world countries who have absolutely nothing. Most of those people don't have homes or own a pair of shoes. Most of them can't even afford to buy a pack of gum. I mean, I know there's plenty of homeless and hungry people here in the U.S, but at least our country has the ability to keep the majority of it's people under some sort of shelter and maintaining some sort of a diet. We (and I say we, not in a stereotypical way, but because it's true) need to quit focusing on the things we want but don't have, and remember the little kids in Africa who are living on the streets in total poverty.

Which brings me to the point of, OUR ECONOMY:
Does anyone actually think Obama's going to be able to change our country? I know he's just been inaugurated and everything, and I probably should give him a bit more of a chance than I have so far, but by the looks of it since his election, nothing has improved. I'm absolutely terrified about what's going to happen to our country and all the people in it within the next few years. I have no idea what's coming. None of us do. And to be honest, I don't think one man alone (I don't care if he's the president or not) can dig us out of this hole we happen to be in right now. It's like the Roaring 20's and the Great Depression all over again. I hope we're ready for this. But, I do trust that God is in control, and whatever the reason may be that Obama did get elected, it all comes back to Him and He will get us out safely.

Superbowl:
Cardinals VS. Steelers! Which team did you guys cheer for when they got a touch down? At first I was pretty indifferent, seeing as I don't really watch football all that much (unless it's my school's team) but then I decided I was a bit more for the Steelers than the Cardinals, and I joined in with most everyone else at my friend Alec's house (except Sarah, Nate, Josh and their parents) with the rooting for the Pittsburgh Steelers. Sarah's parent's went all out with the face paint and everything. It was my first Superbowl party ever, and a whole bunch of us from church were all packed in Alec's tiny little country house - the adult's in the livingroom/kitchen and youth in Alec's bedroom. Alec's parent's (Dee and Ken) went all out decorating their front yard with giant football helmets sticking out on posts from in the ground and signs saying "Go Steelers!" and "Cardinals stink!" just to tick off the Laff family. It was beautiful. You could hear the shouting and cheering super loud coming from the kitchen/livingroom while we were all watching the game in Alec's bedroom down the hall. And of course, whenever there was a funny commercial on, you could hear insane ROARING LAUGHTER and OBNOXIOUS CLAPPING. Cameron was being a huge flirt the whole time, by the way. Especially because at first, I was being super quiet, and that's not like me at all. He was sitting on the couch-bed and mouthed from across the room, "Are you okay?" I said yeah, but then he jumped across the floor and sat next to me, laying on my shoulder, and just keeping me company the whole time. Then he went and layed down on the floor next to Nate and Abbie came over and sat next to me, while Cameron kept tickling me and touching my leg, just to be stupid. Then I went and sat next to Casey, Alec, and Travis... Who all three of them literally attacked me, touching my knees and tickling me. I'm seriously the most ticklish person in the entire world. I promise. I also hate it when people touch my knees, for some crazy unknown reason. Haha

Church:
Yesterday was an amazing service, once again, but more amazing than usual. Things went a bit differently, but it was so awesome it's indescribable. During worship, Bro. Ed (he is one of the people who sings on the worship team) stepped up with his microphone and began preaching and praying right there on the spot. It was awesome. Then Pastor Pearl all of a sudden stopped in the middle of one of our worship songs and began singing a complete different one, that God was giving her right on the spot. It was insane. I couldn't believe it. Then she prophesied over Sis. Donna Z and she was crying her eyes out. I got such chills... Oh I can't wait till Wednesday :)