Realizations and excitement =]

We leave for Youth Fest in 2 days and we'll be in Maryland till sometime on Saturday. I can't wait to see everyone! And meet like tons of new people! Woohoo! I'll have to post some pictures when I get back. Tonight I am finally getting a chance to go to that tennis clinic thing again. I haven't been in so long... Nora's going to yell at me for sure, I know it. Haha I love that girl! Last night I talked to Travis online for literally HOURS, and I talked to Jesse on the phone for a little while too. Travis told me that I'm a huge flirt and they both told me I have a LOT in common with Cameron. I don't think I am a big flirt, I just think it's me being who I am, which is probably overly friendly sometimes.. and them interpreting that completely wrong. They both told me not to change though, because they like that about me. Haha I laughed wicked hard. Jesse thinks me and Cam would be a cute/good couple.. Psht. I wish someone else would think that! But oh well, I think I'm at the point now where I don't care if Cameron likes me or not. Because I know he doesn't like anyone, he hasn't all year. We talked about it. He doesn't want a relationship right now and neither do I, so this is actually a really good thing. And honestly, if Cameron were to like someone.. Not to sound cocky or anything, but I think it would be me. We have SO much in common it's not even funny. It's like creepy, actually. Haha and probably one of the reasons I like him so much. God has been showing me this lately, and I'm very greatful. Hm, there's not much else to write about today so here's a poem I found saved on my laptop that I wrote a really long time ago...


i wish you would come find me
i'm not sure what i'm doing
walking down this road
am i going the right way?
did i turn in the right direction?
or will i be coming to a dead end soon
my love is the movement, yours is the direction
baby give me your love and i know i'll be going the right way
hand in hand, heart to heart, i will never be alone or lost.